“If you want to learn something, read about it.
If you want to understand something, write about it.
If you want to master something, teach it.”
I decided to do teacher training not because I wanted to teach yoga, but because I felt so deeply connected to this practice and to this way of living that I wanted to learn more about it. I had no intention of teaching yoga. When I was presented with the opportunity to teach, of course my negative mind kicked in:
NO Kim! You can’t teach! You’re not ready to be a teacher! What if they judge you? What if they ask you something and you don’t know the answer? What if you SUCK at teaching this sacred science?
Well I tried to re-frame the issue from the perspective of love. I asked myself this:
I love kundalini yoga. It changed my life. Why wouldn’t I want to share these teachings with others to change their lives too?
Of course this didn’t completely get rid of Ego, but it made me feel a lot better about my decision to teach because the motivation changed.
Jesse and I co-taught class this past Friday. There were about 10 people in the room and another 3 taking the class via video conference. Jesse taught the meditation and I taught the kriya. Even after tuning in, I felt my blood pressure rise and I started to sweat. Oh god, I barely practiced this kriya last night. I don’t have a script prepared! What am I going to say? We were done with long deep breathing and the warm ups. It was my turn to teach.
“When the time is on you, start, and the pressure will be off” – Yoga Sutra #4 of the Aquarian Age
At first I was shaky. The moments of silence made me feel awkward, like I had to keep talking for the sake of talking. But I began doing the kriya with them, warming up my spine with spinal flexes. Before I knew it I started to talk as if I was just talking myself through the exercises. My neutral mind was in full force. Words of encouragement and direction flowed freely through my heart and throat chakra. I tried to remember bits and pieces of what Marlene, Priya, and Hari Prem would say in their classes, passing on the knowledge of the golden chain with reverence. Am I actually starting to enjoy teaching?
Class ended and the look on everyone’s face was priceless. They didn’t want to move, just like everyone who takes a class at the studio. One man came up to us afterwards to share his experience. He told us that he was at a rock concert back in the 70s and was standing next to a cannon used in their performance. When the cannon went off, it was so loud that he lost part of his hearing in his left ear. After the yoga class last week he said he noticed he regained hearing in his ear and couldn’t believe it! Then another woman shared her experience with us. She said after last week’s class she noticed she became very sensitive to smells – the air, the carpet, etc. Their stories were INCREDIBLE. True embodiments of the yoga of awareness. It reaffirmed the magic of kundalini yoga and the value it has on everyday life.
I learned so much about myself in this short amount of time: how to use my authentic voice, how to trust myself, how to hold space, etc. But the best aspect of teaching was seeing the power of this technology with my very own eyes. It’s not logical, it’s MAGICAL. And I truly believe this is the magic of the Aquarian Age that will change the sensitivities and mentality of the world, one person at a time.